Saturday, July 31, 2010

Chest Photos

Here are a few photos of my chest, post-surgery. I do have a few that are pre-surgery, but I'm sure most folks would rather not see them ;-P. I'll try not to overwhelm people with too many, but here they are. Enjoy?

The day of my surgery, December 30, 2009. I was pretty well drugged up at this point. It was all I could do not to just get on the bed on go to sleep right then. But I knew I'd want the photos for later.
The tubes come from under the bandages are drain tubes. This is typical of any surgery involving a mastectomy (which is essentially, what mine was, but with visual appearance being the focus, instead of removing cancer). I suspect drain tubes are typical of most surgeries where large amounts of tissue are removed.

Most of the discomfort I felt after surgery (I didn't feel much due to the Percocet) was because of the drains.



January 8, 2010. This is Approximately 1 week (actually 9 days) post-op. There was still quite a bit of swelling, but I was off pain pills (not even extra strength Tylenol by this point). The asymmetry of the you see between left and right is still evident as of this post (7/31/10), but I'm hoping its something that will work itself out over time and through exercise.
The tape you see over the incision lines is to help prevent stretching and reduce scarring. It was NOT holding the incisions closed. This was done with internal sutures, which were eventually absorbed into my body.

The nipples are my real nipples, just resized and grafted into location more appropriate to a male chest. Although, you don't see it in the picture, I had to wear gauze pads over the grafts for about 4 weeks after the surgery. The grafts were attached with external sutures, instead of internal ones.

At this point I started feeling a strong hypersensitivity on certain parts of my chest. Some areas had no feeling, like the outside and the nipples. Other parts felt like they were sunburned whenever I had a shirt on. I had thought this was due to the surgery (and maybe it was in part), but I now think it may have been due to the onslaught of acne I had coming.



Janurary 14, 2010. Swelling is still present. I was able to take the surgical tape off, after a full 2 weeks had passed from the surgery date.

This was my first day, sans-tape.

This was also my first day sans binder. I had to wear what was essentially a strong elastic ace bandage (the same one you see in my first photo) for 2 week following the surgery. This was to make sure the internal tissue healed onto itself. Otherwise, you could end up with air pockets.



January 21, 2010. At this point the scarring is pretty even. As time has worn on, the scarring closer to the center of my chest has lessened, while the scarring toward the side has not healed quite as cleanly. Of course, I don't walk around with my arms up and my shirt off all the time either.



January 24, 2010. I don't feel there's a whole lot of difference between these photos. The swelling has continued to lessen.
You might notice that acne has started to appear on my chest quite a bit. As it turned out, this was only the tip of the ice berg in an extremely bout with acne. As I've said in earlier posts, transitioning is essentially putting my body through puberty all over again. Thus, the acne, and much worse than it ever was for me in high school. Ultimately, I've ended up taking Accutane, which is about the strongest acne medication on the market. Its by prescription only and very closely monitored. Monthly blood tests and everything. As of this post, I'm just starting month 5 of what is typically a 5-7 month stretch.



February 24, 2010. Its hard to see in the photo, but the swelling has lessened significantly in this photo.
At this point I was almost able to do all the proper stretches one should do when working out.
About two weeks after this photo, I was finally able to comfortably sleep on my stomach again. Since the surgery, I haven't totally abandoned sleeping on my back. Prior to surgery, I was almost exclusively a stomach sleeper, but have found that sleeping on my back has stretched out my back wonderfully while sleeping.



July 24, 2010. Healing pretty well now. Obviously no swelling any more. You can't tell from this photo, but I actually have a bit of tan, which is impressive considering this is a stretch of skin that hadn't seen sunlight in at least 25 years. From this angle, you can't see all that well, but there is heavier scarring toward the outside of my chest. From other photos I've seen, this is not uncommon. It will likely fade in time, just not as quickly as the more central scars.
Strangely enough, the hair thats been growing on my chest for the last couple months has been acting similarly to the acne I had earlier. I don't have much feeling on my chest, but the hair seems to act as a sort conduit from the surface of my skin to where I still have feeling. It's similar to the feeling of when your foot has fallen asleep and is waking up. Not quite as strong, but subtly present.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Voice Changes 4.0 - Clip 20

Clip 20: January 21st, 2010 - 32 weeks on T

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Voice Changes 3.0 - clips 12 through 19

Here are voice clips 12 through 19. As you can tell there hasn't been much change recently, so I've stopped doing them every week. At this point I've been shooting for about every 3 weeks. Also, starting on November 2nd, I started recording my voice in the evening instead of morning. I think there was a significant difference in how the tenor of my voice sounds.

Clip 12: August 19th, 2009 - 10 weeks on T


Clip 13: August 25th, 2009 - 11 weeks on T


Clip 14: September 9th, 2009 - 13 weeks on T


Clip 15: September 16th, 2009 - 14 weeks on T


Clip 16: September 30th, 2009 - 16 weeks on T


Clip 17: November 2nd, 2009 - 21 weeks on T (This is the first of my evening recordings)


Clip 18: November 18th, 2009 - 23 weeks on T


Clip 19: December 9th, 2009 - 26 weeks on T (This one was recorded one day shy of my 6-month anniversary of starting T)

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

General Updates

I said I'd try to write more often, so here I am.

This time 2 weeks from now I'll be breast-free. Woohoo! I very excited. Mind you, I'm not excited about having surgery per-se, but I am excited for the end result. I'm also excited that for my birthday in January, I won't be wearing a binder. It's kind of like my first birthday truly feeling like myself. That's one hell of a birthday present.

As I said, my facial hair is growing in which I'm happy about. Unfortunately, it's growing in unevenly. It's annoying, but I suppose it'll get there eventually.

Laura and I have been working out a lot more and I can say that it's exciting to be able to work out and actually see the results in terms of muscle growth. Since starting Testosterone, I've noticed a marked difference in the way my body responds to working out. I love it! I've also noticed that the T has affected how my body distributes adipose tissue (fat). It's not putting it onto my hips so much anymore. I suspect, if I weren't working out, I'd be developing a bit of a gut instead. So, yay! for working out.

I promised voice clips and photos in my last post, so I'm going to try to upload them tomorrow or Friday. My temp job a University of Puget Sound ended without them being able to extend it, so I'll have more free time heading up to Christmas.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Update 11-24-09

First bit: Surgery

Okay, so I know I promised more info about my top surgery three months ago. But here's the low down now.

I'm scheduled for my top surgery on December 30th at 7:30am. It'll be down in San Francisco and performed by Dr. Michael Brownstein. I won't go into all the gory details, but basically it will be a double mastectomy. You can read the specific details on Dr. Brownstein's website.

My parents and I are flying down there the afternoon of the 28th. I'll have one appointment on the 29th to just meet with Dr. Brownstein and go over the details of the surgery with him.

Laura will be joining us on the 30th shortly after my surgery gets over.

The operation typically takes 2 1/2 - 3 hours. I'll be at the hospital for a few hours following the surgery, and head back to my hotel the afternoon of the 30th. I'm told I probably won't remember very much of this day (can't say I'm surprised).

My parents need to head back on the 3rd, but Laura will be down there with me through the rest of my stay.

If everything goes well, I won't see Dr. Brownstein again until January 4th at which time the drain tubes will be removed. Two days after that (Jan 6) I'll see Dr. Brownstein one last time to have the sutures removed.

Laura and I will head back up to Washington on January 7th.

I'll still have to wear a binder for two weeks following the surgery, but after that I should be done with binders for good (Finally!)

Second bit: Documentation

Most of you know already, but I thought I should post it all the same. On October 10th I got my WA state ID to officially list me as male. That makes this my fourth ID this year! It must be some kind of record. Anyway, the next step will be my birth certificate. I'm going to wait until after my surgery to change that as I'll also be able to change the gender marker on my Passport and with the Social Security Office at that time as well.

Right now, I'm not sure where Laura and I are, legally speaking. I think I need to change my birth certificate to list me as male for us to get married, so by default our domestic partnership should still be valid. However, I can't find anything anywhere that actually lists documentation requirements for getting married (and believe me, Laura and I have both spent hours looking).

Third Bit: General Transition updates

My voice is continuing to drop, but at a much slower rate at this point. I have several recordings I need to upload.

Although, I realize this may be TMI, in generally I'm getting hairier. More arm hair, leg hair, stomach hair, well you get the idea. My facial hair is finally starting to fill in as well, which I'm very excited about. I've been taking photos of my facial hair every now and again just to document how it's growing in. I'll post the photos soon. I think they're a little silly looking since I really had almost no hair at all on my face prior to transitioning, but it's fun to see it change. I'd ask you all not to laugh, but I know you all better than that.

I have my last counseling appointment December 8th. I'm also due to have my testosterone levels checked shortly.

Okay, I think that's all for now. I'll try to write more often.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Voice Clip 11: 8-12-09

Here is my 11th voice clip. For the previous 10 clips, please see my post from yesterday, August 11th.

Clip 11: August 12th, 2009 - 9 weeks on T

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Voice Changes 2.0 - actual sound clips

Okay, so here are the first round of sound clips. I've been doing recordings once a week since I started T. The first clip is from before I started T, just so I'd have a point of reference that was completely pre-hormones. I try to do my voice recordings every Wednesday morning after I've taken my testosterone shot, so there will be a new clip for tomorrow as well.

The first recordings are a little rough and the volume varies a bit initially. At that point I was still figuring out how to use my microphone properly.

This is my first attempt trying to post sound clips, so please let me know if they don't work for some reason.

Clip 1: June 1st, 2009 - 10 days pre-T



Clip 2: June 11th, 2009 - 1 day on T



Clip 3: June 17th, 2009 - 1 week on T



Clip 4: June 24th, 2009 - 2 weeks on T



Clip 5: July 1st, 2009 - 3 weeks on T



Clip 6: July 8th, 2009 - 4 weeks on T



Clip 7: July 15th, 2009 - 5 weeks on T



Clip 8: July 22nd, 2009 - 6 weeks on T



Clip 9: July 29th, 2009 - 7 weeks on T



Clip 10: August 5, 2009 - 8 weeks on T